Literally sick of the way guys talk to me just because of the stuff I post on this stupid website.

Assuming that I’m down to meet up for sex, or I wanna sext them or that I wanna see dick pictures.

Fuck off, this is a blog, this is what I do in my spare time when I’m bored at home.

Also yeah I post sexual photos and gif’s doesn’t mean I’m crazy into sex and that I like really naughty kinky shit, I don’t, I have to have sex with the light off so said person I’m sleeping with can’t see my body, I’ve only ever been fully naked in day light/ with the lights on with 2 people, I don’t like being fingered because I’m so self conscious my stupid fat stomach is wobbling all over the place. I never go on top because I’m so fucking terrified that the guy is looking at me and how disgusting I look.

I haven’t taken a topless photo that includes more than just my boobs in over a year because I’m so ashamed of how my body looks now.

I sabotaged my last relationship because I was so self conscious about myself so I broke up with him, as it happens he turned out to be a cunt anyway.

I want to exercise so badly and be at the gym and lose weight but my stupid back is so bad at the moment I can’t even walk to the stupid gym so I’m getting even more depressed about my weight.

I don’t want any messages from any of you lot telling me I’m beautiful and my body is awesome or whatever because I don’t think you lot understand, it doesn’t matter how many times you say it, it doesn’t make me think what you’re thinking. Not that I don’t appreciate the kind words because I do.

This website has given me a confidence I didn’t know I had but has also made me disgustingly self conscious about every little thing, I got hate for having a scratch on my boob, people tell me to kill myself on a daily basis, people message me and talk to me as if I owe them photos or gifs of my boobs just because I’ve posted them in the past, every little tiny thing that I do people send me hate about.

I’m sure someone will tell me I’ve brought all this on myself by posting what I post on here.

Sometimes I just wish you lot could see the bigger picture, I am a lonely fat girl fighting depression and every other demon that’s ever popped its head into my life, so no I’m not naughty in bed and no I don’t want to send you fucking nudes idiot.

I rambled a bit in this post but I don’t care.